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12 March 2008 @ 09:54 am
What the Equinox is Bringing...

Maybe you feel it.  A HUGE wave of energy rushing toward the planet.  Maybe, like me, you've been exhausted, weepy, achy, irritable, unfocused, depressed, and restless all at the same time, unable to summon up a desire for anything.  And it's accelerated this past week, hasn't it?  

Wondering what that wave is bringing?

Just the New Earth, that's all.

But what will that look like in practical terms for you?

The end of the fear-matrix.  Which means that anything AT ALL which feeds on fear, which is founded on fear, which exists out of fear...is going.  FAST.  It will disappear from the face of the Earth and be replaced by the love-matrix, which supports only those creations that align with your heart and the Divine Plan for peace on Earth.

Okay, but what will THAT look for you?

It means any relationship that you maintain out of fear, obligation, or 'because you feel you have to' for any reasons...kiss it good-bye.

It means any job you keep out of fear of not having enough money, or fear of going out on your own, or fear of following your real dreams...is already falling apart and is destined to end quickly.

It means if you live somewhere that you don't really like, but that you feel is practical and you 'can't leave'...you may as well as start packing now.

It means any organization or institution which profits from or incites fear in any way is going to crumble rapidly to make way for ones that are about love, so if you are still dependent on those things, it's time to pull out and find the New Energy way of meeting those needs.

EVERYTHING that is founded on fear...everything that you hold onto out of fear...everything that controls your life through fear...it's all GOING.

And everything your heart truly desires will be laid before you, just as soon as the place is made ready for it.  And, ready or not, the place WILL be made ready for it.  The Divine Plan waits NO longer.

I hope this helps you get through the next difficult week or so before the Equinox, and also through the phenomenally dramatic upheaval that it will bring.

Love in the Highest Octave,

Current Mood: awakeawake
01 March 2008 @ 10:42 am
Listen to Your Heart

I was asked for an update today on the energy that I talked about in Feeling Empty?  I feel the same way that person does, that I'm about as empty as I can get, and where's that new that was supposed to pull up in my driveway?

So I'm tuning in, and I'm telling you what I'm getting, both intuitively and through the things happening to me in my own life.

Wishing you Love in the Highest Octave,

Satina, future N.D.
Current Mood: awakeawake
12 February 2008 @ 01:15 pm
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06 February 2008 @ 10:07 am
The Gift of Malaise

I just took five days off.  I didn't do anything.  I didn't answer my email, answer the phone, or go anywhere.  I simply didn't have the energy or motivation to do so.  It's happened before during intense energy download times.  But this time was different, in that I did not have the absolutely devastating depression that used to hit me during these times.

It may be a matter of perspective.  Maybe I've just learned that this isn't depression, it's just malaise.  Just the void, the emptiness that comes before the refilling of the Spirit.  As I've said in other articles, and as I've learned from other teachers, we're so unfamiliar with peace it sometimes feels like depression.  What a concept, huh?  But I don't think that's all of it.  I think I'm different, now, too.  I'm through with the depressions.  The emptying out.  The dredging up of all my worst demons, and the battles with the dark ones.  I earned my stripes along with my insights, and now I recognize, accept, and eventually embrace the downtimes.

This malaise has been frustrating, as they all are for me, but now, as I'm coming out the other side (Thank you GOD!), I can see the absolutely amazing gifts it has afforded me.  During this time, I learned what was REALLY important to me.  What my heart truly wanted, rather than what my head wanted.  Those things that my head wanted, that I pursued out of some sense of need or fear or restlessness or desperation, for the money or the fame or the acceptance...I had NO energy for a single one of those things.  They all fell away.  I just absolutely COULD NOT do them.  I felt sick to even think about it.  But things that truly had resonance for me, that my SOUL wanted...those things I was able to still find energy for...and joy in.  And now, as the malaise is lifting and I'm able to go back to doing the unimportant things as well as the important ones, the gift I'm left with is...I know the difference!  I know which of the projects I'm involved in have the most backing from my Higher Self, my soul, my purpose.  And I know which activities I've participated in out of some other motivation.  Honestly, I'm a bit surprised by some of them.  They didn't fall out in the categories I expected!

Maybe this period of emptiness has given you the same gift.  Maybe now you know what things, activities, projects, and even people really FEED your soul...and which ones actually drain you.  When we're not in the malaise, we don't feel the drain.  We're used to spending our energy recklessly on things that don't matter, things that aren't in resonance with who we truly are.  But in the malaise, we FEEL it, because we only have enough for what really, really matters.

What has this one taught you?

Love in the Highest Octave,


Please feel free to share this work for the Highest Good of all.  Just keep my contact info intact.  Thanks!
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: Us and Them by Pink Floyd
31 January 2008 @ 11:51 am
Like the Salt 'N Pepa song says, "Let's talk about sex, bay-BEE."

LOTS of buttons are about to be pushed, here.  If you're not into that, you're free to leave now and maybe come back another time.  Believe me, I understand.

Okay, for those of you still here, I'm gonna share what I've been 'getting' intuitively about what's coming with this new energy wave that's gonna flood us all in late February.  

At first, I really didn't 'get' it.  Even though the messages were piling up all around me in my own life, I didn't see how they related to my work.  Strong new sexual energy was coming in, but I actually thought it might be of the dark, coming in to distract me from the bigger work I knew was around the corner for me.

What did this so-called distraction look like?  I'm really glad you asked.  Because I've gotten Guidance today that it's really time to reveal my 'dirty little secret.'

I write erotica.  I've been doing it for years.  I've been published a little, but mostly I do it for free, in one particular online fandom, and limit my work to male/male gay erotica that features the transmutational power of sex to bring opposites together in healing and transformation.

Okay, how many of you have I lost with that?

I understand.  I've gone through years of back-and-forth about this, wondering if it's an unhealed, sick part of me that doesn't fit with the mystic, healer, and teacher that I am in the rest of my life.  I've infused my spiritual teachings into much of what I've written, and I've had all kinds of people write me privately to tell me how I've helped heal their lives with my work, but I've still felt shame and doubt, even as I've felt a powerful draw that I couldn't resist.

In fact, it was this work that brought me together with my soulmate, who is also my writing (and life) partner.

So, anyway, back to this new energy wave that's coming.

It's gonna have a lot to do with sex, people.  It's gonna open all those doors we've tried sooooo very hard to keep closed.  It's gonna bring out things in us that we didn't know were there, or that we knew about but wished to God we didn't.  

Sex is extremely powerful, you see.  Sex is the most magical thing in most people's lives.  So of course, it's been villified and degraded until we're afraid to even say the word, let alone practice the art.  But everyone has sex.  Even if it's only in their minds and/or with themselves.  It's a part of every single human life.  Fetuses have been observed masturbating in the womb.  That's how natural it is.

I've known sexual healing was part of my purpose for many years, now.  Really, ever since my first year of college, when I found myself running impromptu rap groups in my dorm room, answering the questions of girls (and a few very courageous guys) who had had WAY more sex than I had, but who knew virtually nothing about it.  I've always been a researcher, and sex was just one more thing that I had exhaustively read about and learned about, so even though I didn't have a very active sex life until late in my teens, (unlike nearly all of my friends) I had a very extensive knowledge base about the subject.

I ended up volunteering with Planned Parenthood for awhile, teaching their Human Sexuality class to pre-teen girls and their moms.  Guess who had the most resistance to the material?  It wasn't the kids.

Anyway, my life was also a huge clue that the powerful allure of sex wasn't going to go away for me.  As I've talked about on my website, once I received my spiritual CALL to action, I found myself intensely attracted to a person of the same sex.  I'd never been attracted to another woman before, and I certainly didn't consider myself gay, but there it was.  I didn't just like or even love her.  I wanted her.  And I was married to a man at the time.  With two little kids and a career in mental health.  

Bumbling around, but armed with my passion for research, I learned everything I could about polyamory, or life with more than one love partner.  Poly=many amory=loves.  And I invited this woman into my then-marriage.  Shockingly, my first soulmate was open to the idea, as well.  He felt, as I did, that it was meant to be.

Our relationship became an incredible teaching institution, both for ourselves and every single person we interacted with, from the cashiers we shopped with to the people who taught our children in school.  We welcomed and openly answered every question we got, feeling that this relationship had been given to us as a way to open not only ours, but the world's sexual closets.

My first soulmate left the relationship in 2004 and remains our very best friend.  My second soulmate and I are now monogamous life and love partners.  And we still live as transparently as possible, welcoming and answering all kinds of questions about our relationship and lives.  I welcome YOUR questions, as well.  About my life, about my writing, about my beliefs...all of it.  It exists for you, in a way, as much as for me.  After all, we are all one.

So, to recap, I'm a formerly totally heterosexual woman in love with and living in partnership with another woman, and I write erotica that features two men.  I am not gay.  I am not straight.  I am sexually expanded.  You may call me bisexual, if you wish.  It can be comforting to have a label, although the truth goes far beyond it.

What I've been guided to understand is that as we invite more and more of our soul to reside in our physical bodies, we become more and more balanced in regards to the female and male energies.  Our souls are not male or female, after all, and they are not attracted to one another because of gender.  They are attracted to one another out of resonance.  And as we become more inhabited by our souls, living in surrender to and totally guided by our souls, we find our attraction becoming more and more based on that, as well.

I've been absolutely tickled to find out that sociology has noticed this!  They even have a name for it.  'Queer theory' is the theory that people are neither heterosexual nor homosexual, but that everyone exists on a continuum and changes their position on it according to their personal growth and experiences.  Years ago, my partner and I went one further than this and coined the term 'queerituality.'  Queerituality brings spirit into the equation and explains WHY this is happening.

We are bringing our souls down into our bodies.  Maybe you've heard the term ascension.  I've used it, so you probably have, at least here.  It refers to a global phenomenon going on right now, the acceleration of our personal energy frequencies, which is transforming life as we know it on this planet.  The thing is, ascension is kind of an antiquated term, and refers to the way this process has happened in the past.  What's going on this time around has actually never happened before, and a more apt term for it would be DEscension.  The descension of our souls into our physical bodies.

Our spiritual energy, our Higher Selves, all the energy of every lifetime we've ever lived, the original God spark that holds everything we have ever been, will ever be, or were ever divinely meant to be, is coming down into our bodies this time around.  That's why our energy frequencies are rising, why our bodies and minds are complaining, why everything we've ever known is being totally deconstructed and rebirthed.  We are not becoming nonphysical.  We are not leaving the physical behind.  Not this time.  Creation itself is evolving, expanding into something absolutely new even to It, the experience of bringing all that Divine energy into our physical bodies, transforming them in ways even It cannot predict.

As this process happens, we lose the dualistic view of gender and become bi-gendered.  Even our faces and bodies are changing to reflect this.  Have you seen the new children?  Many of them are beautifully androgynous from birth, and many more feel drawn to become that way through makeup, hairstyles, and fashion.  Is it a he or a she?

What if it's both?

And doesn't this force us to take a more reverant look at those incredible, pathlaying souls who chose to be born transgendered, with bodies that didn't match up with their spiritual energies?  What about those who carry both sexes in their bodies, what we have called hermaphroditic?  A new, higher pattern and purpose definitely comes into focus, now.

Most noticeable, especially lately, has been the work of those who came in on the far end of the homosexual continuum.  Their work has been to bring balance to a severely dualistic energy.  Any painter knows, if you have black, and you want gray, you don't add gray, you add white.  So they came in on the other end of the extreme, in order to bring things back into balance.  Their work has been difficult, dangerous, and always so very divine.

The world at large, and the way we fight over, obsess over, and rave over the homosexual energy demonstrates what's going on.  No one, not even those who hate it and fear it, can get enough of it.  Because it's divinely meant to be that we have strong feelings about this that don't allow us to walk away from it.  It's here to stay.  

It's here to change the world.  And it reflects the change already happening.

So.  That's the skinny.  I've felt it for a long time, understood it for a shorter time, and been afraid to say anything for awhile now.  But today I got the push that it's time, ready or not.  When this new wave of energy hits, it's bringing with it a sexual revolution unlike anything you've ever seen.  Doors will be blown off, closets blown open, and buttons pushed.  Paradigms will shatter all around us, leaving us living in fragmented glass houses, unable to hide from one another anymore.

I just thought you should know.  Maybe this will help you understand those discomfiting sexual questions, thoughts, fantasies, or experiences you've been having, so you can allow and embrace them, rather than feeling scared and ashamed, and the very worst, alone.  You are SO not alone on this one.

And if you need help, I'm here.

Wishing you Love in the Highest Octave,

Current Mood: satisfiedsatisfied
25 January 2008 @ 02:30 pm
All night long, I had been terribly thirsty, drinking bottle after bottle of water.  But other than that, and a little mild queasiness, I felt okay.  I was just deciding to go to sleep around 1am (pacific) when I became seriously nauseous and restless.  Not a fun combo.  I tried meditating and praying, but felt the same, so finally got out of bed, giving up on sleep for the time being.  I had some alka-seltzer, which got rid of the nausea, but still felt restless, so I got online.  I just suddenly wasn't sleepy at all.  I stayed up until a bit after 5am, then was hit with a wave of sudden fatigue so hard I was almost afraid I'd collapse before I could get to the bed.  I fell into bed, slept until 10am, then woke up feeling like shit.  My head hurt and felt squeezed, my neck and shoulders felt crushed and pulled tight, I was nauseous, I was weak and dizzy, and my hands were shaking a little.  Oh, and I was starving.

So I ate some pizza and cereal (healthfood, in other words ;-) but it was JUST what I was craving, so I went with it) and took some ibuprofen and more alka-seltzer.  And while the symptoms have weakened, they have not gone away.  I'm also very weepy and very tired.

I just thought I'd share in case anyone else was experiencing the same.  My feeling is that the portal of the 27th and 28th are going to be INTENSE.  I usually go through things like this two or three days ahead.  I'm going back to bed now.


Current Mood: nauseatednauseated
22 January 2008 @ 03:40 pm
Or maybe he did, and he was just damned tired of waiting.  I've been there.  I just can't help but think that if he knew, he would have held on a little longer.

Heath Ledger, star of the planet-transforming movie, "Brokeback Mountain," is dead today of an overdose.  It looks like suicide.

Love in the Highest,

Current Mood: sadsad
Current Music: "Lift Me Up" by Jars of Clay
18 January 2008 @ 05:34 pm
So is everyone else. It's planet-wide. No one is feeling like doing much of anything. Things which seemed so exciting or promising a few weeks ago now hold little or no allure at all, and people are wondering if they'll ever feel GOOD again.

I've been having people come to me and tell me how 'depressed' they feel, or how 'unmotivated' or 'lost' or 'lazy', even people who are not my clients or students! Friends, family, everyone is feeling this one. I wrote out an explanation to a client this morning and then I was guided to expand upon it and share it on the list, here.

Current Mood: busybusy
Current Music: "Don't Stop Thinkin' About Tomorrow..."
18 January 2008 @ 02:20 pm
Hi there,

I just thought it would be nice if I had a little intro post here before I start posting my stuff.  I'm an intuitive counselor, and I have blogs on other services:




and just wanted to hit all my bases with a livejournal, too.  What do I use all these for?  Getting the word out.  'The word' being the things I am inspired by Spirit to share with others.  Sometimes it's a directly channeled message, othertimes it's an article that won't let me NOT write it.  Mainly I tap into the energies of the moment and try to make sense of them through what I write, so that others can better understand what's going on energetically in the world.  My gift is to take what is complex and confusing and make it simple.  Real.  Practical.  Usable.  I have no use for spirituality that can't be used in a practical way to make life better.  So I scan the wavelengths energetically and otherwise, and then condense and share what I get, as inspired.

Please feel free to comment or ask questions, whatever.  You can email me or comment here, or you can visit my website:  http://www.dharmawork.com.

Well, guess that's it for now.  I'll start off with a couple of things Spirit pushed me to send out over the past couple of days.  Hope they can give you some of the peace they've given me.


Current Location: Oregon Coast
Current Mood: creativecreative
Current Music: Indigo Girls "New Dawn Coming"